Anger Management on Tuesday, November 24, 2009

its been awhile. suddenly i've the urge to write this post. this is all because of this anger o' mine. really, i hate it. i hated the fact that i can't carry my coolness like other cool guys..

*even though i do know they do not exist*

..and being friendly to others. i learned from a friend of mine.

u can't make anyone happy.

i suppose its true. as the aging process keep creeping on me like a poisonous tarantula, i can see it. when i was in middle school, i tried to make everyone happy. every each of em'. i didn't care of being the class clown. someone's punching bag. someone's listening machine.

*i like to listened others tales and do*

thanks for all the drama i watched when i was a little, i saw the world in a different perspective. in that stupid pandora box of mine, world aren't evil. yes. do laugh.

little that i know.
naive that i've been.

backstabbers seems to appear like mushrooms after the rain and surround me.

STAB! STAB! STAB! and keep fuckin' STAB him.

how about heart-breakers? don't even let me start on that. its frickin' stupid i tell you.

ATTENTION!
if you're an alien, and you're reading this,
let me tell you one thing, don't even think to invade this planet.
if u can't cant understand any words in this notice, u should googled it.
or simply use google translator.
thank you.

why? its going down itself by all the frickin' idiots who control everything here. trust me, it will.

oh. thanks for all those lovely experiences, i changed. i stopped being good to others. to girls? yes. that too. i do hate girls with they stupid mouth and making others hurt especially when they are hurtin' their own kind.

Ya Allah. Mengapa?

sigh. i kept whinin' and dreamt for any changes. stupid. stop whinin' and do something. waddya say?

am i being emotional and not making any sense till now? let's see. i'm babbling digitally at the very least to reduce some of my tension. i am pissed off with someone. because of her, i think i can't control myself. why did she do that? damn it! im angry and thank God i didn't spit any unpleasant words and phrases to her either in malay or english. patience is virtue, yes?

to all the readers, if there's any i suppose, i'm a person who do not curse to others when pissed off. except for certain degree of course. till then, no harsh words. i used them ONLY when i'm in socializing, which is one of em making friends because i know there's this kind of people that love to hear those words. im tellin' the truth.

oh. i'm babbling again. let me return to the real main point. as i became 20, 'inhuman' humans seem to be here and there. popping out like popcorn. and it made me feel sick. all their lies and rudeness. nausea. ok. full stop.

why i wrote this kind of stupid essay where there's no real point or whatsoever? i'm just managing my anger. by putting this little post o' mine. i should call it as an anger management programme.

duh~

well. im feelin' a little bit better now. to the very least, it is workin'.
last but not least, please, and PRETTY PLEASE, don't frickin' messing with me about certain things. because i'm eff-in' hate it. thank you very much.

p/s: i didn't use any 'haha' in the post. not even one. its expected though. i'm listening to my chemical romance while typing this. and this post is one of a hell product of being emo. say hooray to emo. heh.